STICK-TO-ITIVENESS

I was told a few years back by a trusted friend and coach

That I struggled with a LACK of

‘Stick-to-itiveness’.

If you are wondering,

Merriam Webster dictionary

Defines it as the following:

‘stick-to-itiveness’

NOUN

\ stik-ˈtü-ə-tiv-nəs \

dogged perseverance : tenacity

And lists synonyms such as:

Decisiveness,

Determination,

Purposefulness

GRIT

‘Damn’, I remember thinking grimly at the time,

‘That definitely rings true…’

***

What a burden, it is

To be somebody with such

BIG DREAMS -

And yet such

CRAPPY FOLLOW-THROUGH.

I read stories all the time about incredible people

Who somehow manage to balance all of the demands of

Life, work, health,

Deadlines, new projects,

Parenthood,

And much more…

And I feel like I’m over here

Just bouncing from one journal to the next...

Scribbling down ideas,

And barely finishing (or STARTING)

Anything

Before I am already on to

The NEXT thing…

It’s like having the attention span of a dog,

That’s suddenly noticed a ‘SQUIRREL!!’

And drops whatever it was doing at the time to chase it around for a while.

Except instead of squirrels, I’m chasing:

Ideas,

Financial security,

Freedom,

Expertise,

A super idea,

A SUPERPOWER…

Something that sets me apart

And makes me feel like I have something unique to offer the world.

…Even as a 36-year-old new mom

Starting over in a new country,

And learning a new language.